Mood Killer

Yosh, long time didn't post eh

Well I just reached home from IOI Mall

Went to watch Avengers: Age of Ultron with mum and bro

It's awesome, really awesome, tho I still like the 1st movie of Avengers more 

But go watch, it's worth a watch

Hmm learnt some moral values too

That is we humans created and relied on technologies, but someday in the future, technology may outsmart us and take over our world

Yea idk how to really express it out ah haha 

Anyway not gonna talk much bout the movie, don't wanna be a spoiler XP 

Anyway.

Supposed to be a family movie night

Which it's like so so so so so rare to happen cuz we only watched a movie together once, long time ago

But someone, just have to spoil it

First of all, you knew you had something going on but you still get drunk anyway

You're the type who will put friends number 1 instead of your family

Or perhaps your brother and your mum is your only family, we're nothing to you

Anyway if you don't wanna be responsible for us, why get married? Why give birth to bro and I? For fun?

I was kind enough to ask if you wanna watch movie with us, seems like I shouldn't have, it doesn't really make a difference with or without you tho, the only difference is we're less stress without you

To you I'm making you to be the great almighty one to sacrifice your time with your friends huh?

Drinking beer with your friends and your brother is the only thing that matters in your entire life

Respect.

You always say I didn't respect you as I should

Tell me, besides of who you are to me, is there something else I can respect you?

In your eyes, I'm wasting your money to further my studies

What's all those distinctions to you? Nothing?

I've never ever felt so proud of myself, cuz I worked hard for my results, not like how I used to be, yea I cheated just to get a pass

In your eyes, others are always better than bro and I, your own children 

You wanna compare? If you really wanna do so, I can compare too, and I'm sure you're not as perfect as others either

Nobody's perfect but at least you're not even a bit responsible of you should at least be

Remember how you hurt my mum

Remember how you hurt us

You just have to ruin everything every time

Lastly, something really embarrassing happened

After our movie we were bout to leave

Before we leave, we have to pay for our car park ticket 

Mum left her little pouch which she used to put in all her small notes in it 

So mum left with RM50 and RM100

Sadly the autopay machine only accepts small notes like RM1 up to RM10 I guess 

It doesn't even accept coins which I have tons of it in my wallet and in my car 

And here we were panicking cuz there's a long long behind and we're dragging everyone's time 

Then the young man behind, he was willing to pay for us

Well my mum offered to exchange RM3 of coins with his notes (I know it was a bit jerkish cuz everybody hated coins, at least most of them do, including me)

But he rejected it and said its okay

To the stranger who had helped us, you are so kind, thanks a bunch! Really!

Tho he can't see what I posted but still ARIGATOU!

Moral of the story: please remember don't take every single ringgit out of my wallet ever again

Sorry for the really long post

Just felt like updating my bloggie

It'll be zombified soon if I don't update it

Anyway, forget bout that mood killer, tonight is awesome

Well spent with my mum and brothaa ❤️

Gonna sleep now, nights!

-be responsible of what you've chosen-

Changes

People changes, some changes are for the better, well some aren't, well maybe it's only not good for some party, well I'm not so sure haha

I'm sure I've changed too, not a lot I guess, but changed for the better me

I used to be childish, super volcano, I don't really like the old me

My panda changed me tho, not really change la more like influence, made me realize I have to change to not hurt people, most importantly don't wanna hurt my panda heheh

Changes can be fast tho

So fast that I don't even know what happened and poof, everything isn't like how it's used to be, like a month ago

Didn't expect everything to change within a month 

Perhaps the main character herself didn't know about this, perhaps she just felt like everything is still the same

I hope it's just me overthinking and oversensing 

But I can't fool myself anymore

For once or twice I can convince myself with the same reason over and over again

But as the time goes on, I can't anymore

Knowing it isn't the same anymore, but I can't do anything, this feel sucks ttm

At least if I know it's my fault then maybe it won't be that suffering 

The thing is, I don't even know if it's my fault 

Hoping so badly that someone can tell me why and what happened

If it's my fault, I'm willing to apologize 

If what ever I did pisses you off or annoyed you, I sincerely apologize 

Cuz I know when I'm mad I can't think, all I do is stupid stuff which I don't even know I actually hurt somebody

I hope everything goes back to normal

I hope everything remains unchanged

Happy CNY 2015

Happy CNY
Happy goat year heee
Well it's been a long time I post something here hahaha XD
Anyway just some random post as I'm quite bored now
Today is chor 3 of CNY
Yesterday morning already came back to KL as my mom has work
Planned to find my panda paktor xia when I was going to Ipoh
Unfortunately not enough time and my parents weren't willing to fetch me so... Cannot see my panda T^T
Anyway get to see her few more days so... TAHANNN XD
Well this year's angpau macam not that much
Reducing every year ka huhuhu T.T

Anyway nothing much
Once again Happy CNY to everyone
2015 be good to me and panda heeee <3
Gong hei fat choi
羊年快乐
XD

#ComicFiesta2014

O hisashiburi desu
Haha should have posted this long time ago
But I was so lazy and haven't tidy up the pics in my phone XD
But my phone is running low on memory have to tidy now liao
16gb is never enough *flips table*

So I went to Comic Fiesta (CF) last year

My first time to CF

And also my first time trying cosplay

Cosplaying with my bunch of BFF(s), best memory ever teehee

Kuroko No Basket Genderbend

I was the leader, Akashi Seijuro

From the left:

YC > Murasakibara

Jean > Kuroko

Leannyan > Kise

Rui > Midorima

Well CF was so crowded, and it was a bit hot as we were wearing so many layers and the damn wig was so heavy and long and hot.

Mine was 80 cm QAQ

Wonder how those with such long hair tahan and maintain their hair

pei fu pei fu XD

As Rui said we were like pandas, many people approached us and asked for photography

Haha never experience this much attention before, kinda happy XD

Although it was tiring and hot, but I really had so much fun

CF 2015 I might wanna go and cosplay too teehee

And and and

So glad to drag my panda along too heeee

Leng zai Haru from Free!

Ironman woots

Leng lui Asuna from SAO

2014 was awesome, may 2015 will be as wonderful as 2014 too heeee

Wanna be with panda forever and all my best friends, pudding and selfie gang, may our friendship lasts forever.

That's all hehe ciaoooo

Finals Sem 2

Time do flies
And now it's already time for finals for semester 2
Starting on next Monday, until 4th of November
Well my internals are quite okay this sem
Fund maths is still shitty tho
I still have to take additional semester anyway

All the best ba :D

Gotta go study
Ciao~

BFF

I can't sleep

I'm tired but I can't sleep

Things are still going on in my brain 

And I decided to type it out

To my dearest best friend, no offense, I'm just voicing out

You're my best friend, and I meant forever

Please don't ever say stuffs weren't like before, nothing will change 

I cared for you, I still do

But tbh once in awhile, it doesn't have to be me approaching you first

I actually hope you can approach me first 

At least that will make me feel you care for me too

Sometimes I stopped myself from caring 

Cuz your cold responses, made me feel like am I annoying? Should I stop what I was doing?

I really thought you stopped caring 

And when you're not okay, please just be honest with me, I suck at reading people, I'm not really sensible, but I will try my best to do so 

Bear in mind, you will never be replaced, you're my soulmate for life, and I hope I'm still your best friend, I hope I'm not getting replaced 

I was once give up on believing best friends are forever, but you made me believe that again, and I wanna continue believing it

And I'll admit, when I see your selfies with your new friends, I do get jealous, I just don't wanna admit it, but I do

I'm a really complicated person, which is troublesome and sensitive, thanks for accepting for who I am

I'm glad I met you, I'm glad you actually cared for me that much, I honestly didn't expect that 

Our friendship will never end, and it's still counting on, happy 3 years anniversary best bud ❤️

It's a bit 老土 to say so but still

Best friends forever ❤️

Stress

During 1st semester, I thought that was already really stressful
Until I came to 2nd semester, now I know 1st semester was actually really relaxing already
And I know whats more coming is during degree, the so called stress we're having now is nothing compared to degree

I failed chemistry and resulting having to take an additional semester
This was already stress enough for me cuz I still can't let it go
Especially when I see other of my friends are able to prepare to move onto university already
While I was still in college, and next year I really cannot imagine what it will be like
Today they all handed up their application form, while here I was, emo and overthinking cuz I can't apply yet
Okay this is getting a bit off track
Come back come back haha

For the 1st time, I'm actually feeling English is hard and really stressful
Well most of it is cuz Monash only accepts with a minimum average mark of 65% for both semesters
Plus, English really has quite an amount of important assignments
The research project report and the presentation, which the marks allocated are quite high
Then the contemporary writing which worth 20% itself
1st semester's English was way much easier than now
Now we have so many texts and movie to remember
Two movies 42 and Rabbit-proof Fence, which movies are still quite okay to me
Then novel The Kite Runner which I was still at chapter 2, such a boring novel =3=
Then Half The Sky lagi teruk cuz all it's talking about is human trafficking, prostitutes, sex etc
Tbh I'm not even interested to read it but I got no other choice
Gotta start reading it soon =3=
Plus, our lecturer loves presentation
I'm starting to feel so numb and tired of it already
And some of our group members aren't even helpful
MIA whenever they feel like it
Speechless

Then bio currently no more assignments THANK GOD
But I'm still kind of stressed cuz I'm scared I can't manage it
For the last topic test I only scored 65% /3\
Not good enough ah
Bio is important for me ugh

Then ICT
I'm sort of regretting why did I even take it
I'm not even touching stuffs about IT LOL
I'm thinking should I have retook chemistry unit 1 instead
But then I scared I'll fail it again
Ugh why am I so weak :(
Left one major assignment: programming
Can't even download VB how to program jek ugh

Finals are coming soon
One more month approximately
Gambateh ba