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Monday, April 15, 2013

Power

Just posting what I wrote
English essay from teacher
Power :3


 Everyone desires power: the power to be well-known by the world, the power to protect our loved ones, the power to be recognized. I was once an ordinary fat boy, ordinary looking, just plain and simply ordinary. I do not really have friends, this was mostly because my shy and timid personality, I do not have the courage to walk out of my world, people will sure tease me and reject me, I was fat and boring. She was my only friend, she won't tease me, in the other way round, she had always been protecting me from being bullied and teased by others. Unwittingly, I had fell in love in her.
      I desired power, I wanted to be recognized by everyone, I wanted to be good looking and be loved by everyone, I wanted to have the power to at least protect myself from being bullied. Most importantly, I wanted to protect her, I don't want to be protected by her anymore. But when I take a look at myself, even I wanted to tease myself, fat, chubby, I can't even score well in exam.
      On one night, while I was doing revisions in my room, I heard on radio telling about that night will be having shooting star flying across the sky. Coincidently, my housing area will be able to get to see it. And I thought to myself, this was definitely a chance given to me to make a wish. Rumors said that if you make a wish on a shooting star, your wishes will surely come true. I rushed to the window, waited patiently for the arrival of the legendary shooting star.
      All of the patience I gave was worth it, finally, the shooting star came. I closed my eyes, and made a wish sincerely. I wished that I have the power to protect her, to be well-known, to be full of confident in myself. That way at least I can stop being teased and bullied by everyone, that way at least I can stop being a useless coward. After the shooting star had gone with my wishes on it, I sighed hopelessly. I then prepared to go to bed.
      My life has changed since that day. It was a fine afternoon after my school was over. I was walking home, it was like my daily routine to walk home alone. The weather was a bit weird, but I didn't noticed that as my mind was fully occupied by the project given by teacher. The sky suddenly darken it's colour, it was still sunny on the previous minute, but gloomy in the next minute. Suddenly, it started to rain, it was raining cats and dogs. I had no choice but to run. As I was about to reach the nearest bus stop, I felt like I was being hit by some sort of electric, was it the thunder? I felt like I was burning, it was so hard to breathe, all I saw was pitch black, and I lost my consciousness.
      I felt a strong light was scorching into my closed eye lids. I opened my eyes unwillingly due to the sleepiness was still in my head, wandering. Dad was the first person I saw, he seemed worried, and then stunned. I turned my head around and I saw mom. She looked amazed, too. Her weird and happy look on her face was like she met some sort of popular celebrity. What was wrong with my face? I touched my face to ensure that I was still normal. A pair of eyes, a nose with two nostrils, my mouth and a single-sided dimple when I smiled and even when I talked......
      Everything was normal, what was wrong with those looks on their faces? I pinched my cheek, and finally I found something weird: where was my chubby cheek? And where was my big, round tummy? I stared at my parents, hoping they will tell me what was wrong with me. "Son...... You......" Finally dad spoke and his voice broke the silence state. "You looked amazing! You looked handsome!" Mom shouted excitedly, just like how she cheered while she saw David Beckham on television.
      The nurse passed by gave a sharp glare to mom, asking her to lower her voice down. Mom apologized by whispering and then came back to where she left off. She pinched my cheek and I could see her eyes were sparkling in excitement. That really was my mom. " I think I shall call the doctor up." Dad left after he had realized what he should have did. The doctor came in, did some simple body check for me. I was healthy, nothing went wrong. I was relieved. We thanked the doctor, completed the troublesome procedure for me to check out from hospital, finally we headed home. Mom told me I was stroke by thunder, even the doctor said it was a miracle that I was still alive. I should have already died with that direct hit from the thunder. Mom even told me that after the emergency operation, when mom first saw me, she thought the doctor gave me a plastic surgery.
      Finally, I was home.  I went to my room to get some rest. I saw myself in the mirror, I had changed a lot. This was the look that I had been desiring for. Was the wish on the shooting star had been granted? The thunder that hit me, it changed me into every girls' dreamy prince, I stared at myself in the mirror for quite a time, my appearance didn't literally changed, it was just I had turned skinnier and more attractive. I felt a bit different too. The way I was feeling, it was like I had so much of confident in myself that I never had felt before. I felt that there was also a darker side of me inside my heart now, I felt wild, I felt like I wanted to take control of every girls' heart, to make them fall for me, especially to make her mine......
      I didn't take a long break, I went to school on the next day. When I stepped into my class, the whole class was staring at me, just like what I had expected.  After a long pause, the girls surrounded me, asking me questions, giving me attentions that I never had before. I was so delighted, this is what I had been wanting, I finally had the power to be recognized and to be liked by others.
      I had won thousands of girls' heart over, except her...... I was smart in studies, sporty, handsome and every girls' dreamy prince charming. But still, she treated me liked she used to, just like her old pal. I had been expecting some different treatments from her, I was the popular kid in the school for now. I had the power to be well-known by everyone, I had the power to protect myself from being bullied, I had the power to protect her, I had the power to give her happiness. I just don't understand why she just won't fall for me. I had tried to date other girls , so that I could fall in love with other girls. Since she was no longer available, she belonged to someone else, Edward.
      She told me that I had been acting like a jerk lately, I dated three girls at the same time, toying with their feelings, she said I had changed a lot, not just physically but mentally too. But she just wouldn't know that all I did was just to forget the feeling I had for her. We don't hangout like we used to anymore. She hated me. But I cannot hold back my feelings that I had for her anymore, I wanted to let her know how much I love her.
      I went to her house recklessly, without letting her know I was coming. She looked surprised to see me. Awkwardly, she invited me in, her parents weren't around, just her and I. Before she could open her mouth to ask why, I started the conversation first. I took a deep breath, and confessed everything to her, I loved her, I wanted her. She should be mine instead of that silly Edward's. She was puzzled for a second, and she rejected me coldly. She claimed that I should have known that she was dating Edward, she preferred that we should stay friends, just like we used to.
      My heart was breaking into pieces, it was aching, I can't feel anything except a sudden anger. An anger that I cannot control, I don't feel like myself anymore. I clenched my fist tightly. I grabbed her arm and pushed her onto the sofa. I was on top of her, she tried to look away, I forcefully placed my lips on hers. She looked into my eyes, she was scared of me, I was a monster. It wasn't me who controlled the actions before, it really wasn't me!
      She gave a tight slap on my face, and that slap brought me back to my self-consciousness. I stood up, apologized and ran out of her house. What have I done? How can I do that to a girl I loved? I was a monster. I could never face her again, she would never forgive me. Even myself could never forgive myself too.
      "Tic tok tic tok......" The ticking sound of the clock in my room brought me back to reality from my flashbacks. I am sitting in the darkness, praying that god will take away this power. I am now powerful, also I am pitiful, I will just let myself to be swallowed into the darkness, leaving nothing behind.
(1627 words)


Nyahaha awesome #perasan
3 pages long x3

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