I'm sorry
Feels like I'm like a bad girl now
Yea, I purposely put my phone in flight mode
Because I was scared
I was afraid that she'll call me and ask me to go for classes
I'm really sorry
I don't have the guts to face her
I'm sure I don't like accounts already
Never did
Idk
Haters continue to hate
I don't wanna care liao
I'm just choosing my own path
Decisions are already made
Thursday, February 28, 2013
Monday, February 25, 2013
Sayonara Accounts
So yea
Last year's year-end holiday
I was thinking and thinking and thinking
Do I really like accounts?
Why the hell am I taking it as an additional subject and adding burdens to myself?
Just because my mum said accounts may be useful in the future
And I was greedy to think that additional useful subjects may be another way of earning money in the future
Until today Rui told me that she had decided to drop it
Oh ya, and then I was suffering
To drop or not to drop?
Now I have decided I'LL DROP ACCOUNTS
I never liked it, I'll never like it
Remember since Form 1's KH
I had already started to hate KH because mine was PK-Perdagangan which means ACCOUNTING
Therefore, even PMR that day, I refuse to study/revise KH =w=
And with luck I get a B
I do sounded like a 被動者
I admit, yea, I am.
I am at the angle of "someone's finally dropping it, I shouldn't be scared now" part
I am like this, since I was a kid also
I wanted to do something, but I don't have the damn guts to do
UNLESS someone did it first, and then I'll be doing it next
Same like when I was in drama class LOL
And I always get scolded for waiting Ying Shyan or someone else to start first
Ying Shyan was the one who always the first to start something first :3
I'm a follower,
I always follow.
Oh and HAPPY BREAK-EGG-DAY TO ME
I WAS HATCHED! XD
HAPPY SWEET 17 YO CYY XDD
Thanks Rui, for wishing and wishing and wishing me HB for 30 times
Thanks Leanne, for your lovely present though I've even forgotten where the hell do I even lost it. GOMEN.
Thanks 5 Jati, for singing the HB song for me so loudly, and also THANK YOU HENG RUI YING AND LIM THOU JEAN =w=
Last year's year-end holiday
I was thinking and thinking and thinking
Do I really like accounts?
Why the hell am I taking it as an additional subject and adding burdens to myself?
Just because my mum said accounts may be useful in the future
And I was greedy to think that additional useful subjects may be another way of earning money in the future
Until today Rui told me that she had decided to drop it
Oh ya, and then I was suffering
To drop or not to drop?
Now I have decided I'LL DROP ACCOUNTS
I never liked it, I'll never like it
Remember since Form 1's KH
I had already started to hate KH because mine was PK-Perdagangan which means ACCOUNTING
Therefore, even PMR that day, I refuse to study/revise KH =w=
And with luck I get a B
I do sounded like a 被動者
I admit, yea, I am.
I am at the angle of "someone's finally dropping it, I shouldn't be scared now" part
I am like this, since I was a kid also
I wanted to do something, but I don't have the damn guts to do
UNLESS someone did it first, and then I'll be doing it next
Same like when I was in drama class LOL
And I always get scolded for waiting Ying Shyan or someone else to start first
Ying Shyan was the one who always the first to start something first :3
I'm a follower,
I always follow.
Oh and HAPPY BREAK-EGG-DAY TO ME
I WAS HATCHED! XD
HAPPY SWEET 17 YO CYY XDD
Thanks Rui, for wishing and wishing and wishing me HB for 30 times
Thanks Leanne, for your lovely present though I've even forgotten where the hell do I even lost it. GOMEN.
Thanks 5 Jati, for singing the HB song for me so loudly, and also THANK YOU HENG RUI YING AND LIM THOU JEAN =w=
Saturday, February 23, 2013
48 hours per day
How I wish I have 48 hours per day
So busy la this year
2013 suck -.-
Argh not enough time to use la
Or I can just say I wasted too much time and I'm finding not enough time to use now LOL
Tasks for today are like packed
1st I have to iron my school uniforms, not only mine, I have to iron my bro's as well
2nd will be moral folio, I should have done it by last year's year end holiday but I wasn't confident enough with the one I took to copy so.. Yea I delayed till today -w- (obviously it was so my bad..)
3rd is the English essays that Pn. Nurlina gave.. 6 essays dude! More like copying though but still kinda lazy to do la.. Zzz..
4th REVISIONS. Exam is coming, like this coming Thursday.. Yea kinda forcing myself to get a B for at least most of the important subjects.. Don't wanna regret on the day I get my SPM results..
5th PROJECT L. My bad my bad, this so called mission was like given few weeks ago, till now also haven't really touched it yet.. Well I should have completed it by last CNY holiday, but I didn't even really touch pc.. Idk why, just don't have the mood to play pc these days, even if its my hobby-editing.. -0-
Haiz..
-So many tasks, so little time-
My quote of the day - -
Sayonara
Gonna clear the tasks 1 by 1
Gg.com
So busy la this year
2013 suck -.-
Argh not enough time to use la
Or I can just say I wasted too much time and I'm finding not enough time to use now LOL
Tasks for today are like packed
1st I have to iron my school uniforms, not only mine, I have to iron my bro's as well
2nd will be moral folio, I should have done it by last year's year end holiday but I wasn't confident enough with the one I took to copy so.. Yea I delayed till today -w- (obviously it was so my bad..)
3rd is the English essays that Pn. Nurlina gave.. 6 essays dude! More like copying though but still kinda lazy to do la.. Zzz..
4th REVISIONS. Exam is coming, like this coming Thursday.. Yea kinda forcing myself to get a B for at least most of the important subjects.. Don't wanna regret on the day I get my SPM results..
5th PROJECT L. My bad my bad, this so called mission was like given few weeks ago, till now also haven't really touched it yet.. Well I should have completed it by last CNY holiday, but I didn't even really touch pc.. Idk why, just don't have the mood to play pc these days, even if its my hobby-editing.. -0-
Haiz..
-So many tasks, so little time-
My quote of the day - -
Sayonara
Gonna clear the tasks 1 by 1
Gg.com
Monday, February 18, 2013
FML - - t
So school reopened today
CNY is ending
My birthday is around the corner *cheers*
But 1st term examination is the day after my birthday *burst into tears of JOY*
Suddenly feel kinda miserable
Don't know how to describe my feelings out loud
/depression
WAS planning to celebrate my birthday with friends
Well that's no need for now - -
Never mind never mind
Study ba
But seriously not really into the mood
Gg.com /.\
Saw many pics on FB about the flood at IOI mall
Woah 事情很大條下 LOL (°_°)
1st time see tiok shopping mall which I went usually flood tiok like this -3-
Kk
Random update
FML
Taa.
CNY is ending
My birthday is around the corner *cheers*
But 1st term examination is the day after my birthday *burst into tears of JOY*
Suddenly feel kinda miserable
Don't know how to describe my feelings out loud
/depression
WAS planning to celebrate my birthday with friends
Well that's no need for now - -
Never mind never mind
Study ba
But seriously not really into the mood
Gg.com /.\
Saw many pics on FB about the flood at IOI mall
Woah 事情很大條下 LOL (°_°)
1st time see tiok shopping mall which I went usually flood tiok like this -3-
Kk
Random update
FML
Taa.
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
Happy CNY :D
So only few more days till Chinese New Year
I'll be celebrating CNY at my hometown, Tapah and Ipoh
As usual lah :3
But this year's angpau sure very less xia :(
Cuz my relatives from Singapore aren't coming back this year T.T
Adui..
Kk la
It's still kinda early but
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D
I'll be celebrating CNY at my hometown, Tapah and Ipoh
As usual lah :3
But this year's angpau sure very less xia :(
Cuz my relatives from Singapore aren't coming back this year T.T
Adui..
Kk la
It's still kinda early but
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR :D
Sunday, February 3, 2013
回憶
Written last night..
今晚真的好爽、好爽噢…
今晚真的好爽、好爽噢…
很久很久都没有这样畅谈了…
与我没有血缘关系，但感情超好的＂姐姐＂们叙旧…
钩回了好久以前的回忆，在我脑子里零零碎碎的回忆…
阿妈教我的第一首歌，差点就忘了，感谢萍姐…
＂小老鼠，上灯台；
偷吃油，下不来；
喵喵喵，猫来了；
叽里咕噜滚下来。＂
以往我总得唱完这首歌才有晚餐吃的哩…
呵呵，我闹脾气时还不肯唱的说，阿妈就会威胁我说「发脾气、顽皮，不用吃饭咯」
而那么贪吃的我便会低声下气乖乖就范…
还被 Chui Kien 姐姐把我的糗事给爆完出来了，好贱 (＞人＜;)
看见了Foon Foon 姐姐，真是令人感到心酸、担心…
其实阿妈并没有离开，她永远活在我们的记忆中，我们的心中。:')
念着她的时候，就抬抬头，望望远方的星星、月亮…
我坚信她就在那里不远处，看着我们，守着我们。
她就像一根燃烧到了尽头的蜡烛，照亮了彷徨的我们的道路，却奉献了自己。
从来都不求任何回报，将所有的苦一个人独撑完，从来没有怨言，尽管自己走了一条坎坷路…
自患上癌症以来，无论有多痛、多辛苦，真的都没有人看见到她掉下一滴眼泪…
好可怕的毅力、意志力…
所以说，现在的年轻人真是不堪一击。
我学会了很多东西…
「在埋怨自己的命运时，请仔细想想其他比你不幸的人。比起他们，你又算什么？想自杀的人，在动手之前，仔细想想，有多少人想继续活下去都没有这个机会，你却孩子气地因为遇上了挫折而想放弃自己？面对挫折就只有解决，而不是逃避。自杀前，数数一二三，深呼吸，你就会发现你很愚蠢了。」
以上是「颖莹理论」，不赞同的就请你飘走好了，谢谢合作。
刚刚和萍姐大大声唱「小老鼠」时，
我们明明嗅到一股花香味，
真的很突然、短暂的花香味。
好像是茉莉花吧？
（别说我迷信之类的，这些东西真的不说你不信…）
之前阿妈临走前，芳芳姐姐也嗅到这莫名、扑鼻而来的香味…
所以我们就说，阿妈，是你回来了吗？
你有听见我们的歌声吗？
若你回来了，报梦给我嘛〜〜
至少让我见见你，让我知道你过得很好…
突然，我的心中多了一团火…
我决定要好好读书。
我相信阿妈并不想看到这样懒惰的我。
我不想要辜负任何人，更不想在失去后才来后悔。
别再让生命留下遗憾。
明天我并不会去上学。
明天我和老弟将去送阿妈最后一程。
所以就写到这，要睡了，晚安。
噢，真的还放不下心，
对不起我亲爱的瑞 darling。
哪有人可以令我忐忑不安一整天的？
很死鬼怕被讨厌啦…
或是说被不信任呐！
要知道信任是很难再赚回来的说…
谁叫我在乎？
算了，原本就是我的错，我罪该万死。/3\
Friday, February 1, 2013
阿妈
她，無微不至地照顧我，雖然說我不是她的親生孩子，我們甚至是沒有任何的血緣關係。但她總待我不錯，我生病時她會不顧一切，騎著她的老鐵馬，載著我這丫頭去看醫生。
小時候的我總是很調皮，還記得媽媽跟我說過，因為我喜愛被腳踏車載著的那感覺，我總裝病，嚇得奶媽立刻帶我去看醫生。每每抵達醫務所門口時，我總會突然說：＂阿媽，我沒事了！＂而奶媽總感到哭笑不得。
我和我弟弟都是被同一個奶媽帶大的。我們總稱她＂阿媽＂。＂阿媽＂其實是媽媽的意思，因為我還小時總聽見阿媽的女兒–大姐姐們，叫她＂阿媽＂，我這一祇鸚鵡，跟著叫著叫著，直到我懂事後，也改口不來了。而我弟弟更是有樣學樣。
阿媽的廚藝非常了得，我的最愛是阿媽最拿手的冬菇雞腳。雖說我不愛吃雞腳，但是冬菇配上那用雞腳來熬過的汁，實在是一流。還有還有，阿媽泡的獨門咖啡更是一級棒。我弟弟自小都不喝咖啡、不喝茶，除了阿媽泡的咖啡。以往我們的下午茶都是，咖啡配梳打餅，將梳打餅浸在那熱烘烘的咖啡裡頭，絕配。
為何那麼好的一個人，卻有如此坎坷的一生、那麼苦的人身？老天是瞎了嗎？如今阿媽躺在醫院裡頭，不省人事。上天就那麼殘忍嗎？她的二女兒還很需要她，非常非常需要... 畢竟她不能擁有我們一般人的思維...
阿媽患上的是癌症，聽媽媽說癌細胞已經擴散至全身上下，甚至還進入了骨子裡頭... 更糟的是，阿媽處於昏迷狀況。
我什麼都幫不了，只能誠心地向上天祈求、禱告，望阿媽早日康復，身體健康，一切安好。
然而，就在我們一家人要去中央醫院探望她時，媽媽打了通電話問問阿媽的所在病房位置。電話裡頭的回應實在是難以接受、殘酷的事實。阿媽她今早凌晨五點多過身了...
回家的路上，我實在是難過的不想說話。當然，眼淚不斷在眼眶裡打轉。遺憾，我很遺憾，昨晚莫名的狂風暴雨是這個壞消息的前兆嗎？
阿媽，怎麼不等等我和阿弟來看看你、和你談談天後才走呢？真的真的很遺憾，抱歉，阿媽。
一路走好，念您，阿媽。
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