Run Away

I feel like I'm such a coward
Whenever I feel scared to face something
I will turn around and run away irresponsibly
Wanted to change this bad habit of mine
But it's just so hard
WHYYYYY UGHHHH

I'm having chemistry trials later
And I'm 100% not ready yet
Well we can choose to not to sit for it
Since it's not counted in the finals
But I still feel bad if I don't go
SO COMPLICATED NOWWWW
Go la go la screw everything up HAHAHAHA

Wanted to be like her
Fearless 

Assessments

Yo

Starting to get use of college life's pace

Secondary school life was way much easier way much stress free compare to college life

Last year I was still kinda admiring those seniors who moved on to college, said goodbye to SPM

Well now I know I was wrong haha, college life isn't that enjoyable

The first week when college started, I suddenly felt really really stress

I can't eat well, I can't sleep well

Thinking every night "Am I choosing the right course? Am I choosing the right subject?" etc

Thank god I got used to it now haha

My timetable is quite shitty

Class, break, class, break...

4 days in a week I have to stay till 5:15, bare with the terrible traffic

REALLY REALLY TERRIBLE

Usually it only took me half an hour to reach home, but due to the jam, it took me 1 and a 1/2 hour

What's making it worse was the rain

I suppose weather hated me a lot, cuz when I'm not driving, it won't rain at the time I was going back

But when I'm supposed to drive, it rained at 5pm something WTF thanks a lot dude

Fortunately I got used to it, hahaha

Okay what's more important ASSESSMENTS

For MUFY it's divided into 2 parts, internal assessments and then the external, FINAL EXAM

So the marks are as well divided into 50% : 50%

Therefore we are given assessments, English assessment

1st we have to write the damn report, which we aren't allowed to use Wikipedia

But usually I use Wikipedia de lorrrr NYUUUUUUU QAQ

After that we still have to do oral presentation according what we have wrote on our report

The marks is report 10%, presentation 10%

Total 20% 

THAT'S QUITE A LOT XIA WEIH GG LIAO

Talking about presentation, I have to thank Pn Nurlina for forcing us to do presentation for last year's ULBS

If not I would not have that kind of experience, to present a topic in front of everyone

But last year Pn Nurlina let us chose our own topic tho, I've chose to talk about Kei, my e.organ

For now the topics are quite limited, we have to choose what's given on the list

I've chosen gay marriage, the most interesting topic, for me la

Cuz other quite boring leh

It ain't easy liao, not like last year I don't even really need to do research on it, well I'm organist, I just talked based on my personal experience :p

As for gay marriage, I have to do a lot of research

The articles are so long and I have to scan em'all to look for infos haiz

At least 6 sources: 3 from book/ebook, 2 from journals, and 3 from articles online

JUST KILL ME *sigh*

K la I guess that's all

More like complaining than blogging hahaha

Ganbatte to me!

Wallet MIA

Yosh~

Haiz lost my wallet, got RM40++ in it, what's more important, my driving license and IC

Had our first chemistry experiment on Friday

Got overexcited over our first experiment

And idk why I'm so excited with the little drawer of the lab's table, it's quite handy and cute LOL XD

I think I left my wallet in that freaking drawer tho

The last time I saw it was I took money to pay for the lab coat, I think? @@

I think I must have put it in the drawer then @@

But the weird part is I took my phone and watch before I left the lab, which I put my watch and phone with the wallet leh QAQ

IF it wasn't in the lab where could it be?

I didn't take or there wasn't a need to use my wallet liao leh

Ouh shyt la me, I'm so dead meat, don't know how to tell my parents

As you can see re-doing an IC is quite expensive, RM100++ for the first time I think?

PLUS MY DRIVING LICENSE ARGHHH

Haiz can only blame myself for being overexcited over such small stuffs TwT

Feel like I was acting like a child hahahaha yea

Suat Ning did went crazy with me so I wasn't the only child bwahaha YO MATE! XD

Back to the topic

Went to find my wallet yesterday

But the staffs wasn't available so couldn't get into the lab because it was locked D:

At least I made a report to the security

Hope I can get my wallet back la, with my important stuffs such as my IC, driving license and the 大头贴

 WALLET PLEASE RETURN SAFELY T.T

College life

Yo, long time no post
I ran out of topics to post XD
So yea, college life had started since this Monday
I'm taking Monash University Foundation Year aka MUFY
Well I drove to college everyday so it's actually quite tiring
And tbh I'm missing secondary school life very much
College life is stressful, well most of it is because mine is accelerated class
Kinda regretting that I should have take January intake instead of March intake tho
Well since regretting also can't help anything, I'll try my best
Luckily I'm already starting to get used to it
And luckily I met a few of friends too

My 1st friend is Joey, comes from Ipoh, leng lui lai hahaha
As usual, she approached me 1st, asked my name and all
I admit I was so useless, don't have the guts to even greet people hahaha
Moving on is Suat Ning, luckily she is in the same class with me, keeping me accompanied all the time, and being my personal GPS
Haha as you know I'm really bad in directions, and we have to change class like for every different subject
And moreover, we'll be having different classmates for different subjects, some same tho..
But it's still easier to make friends during orientation
And really really luckily I met them seriously yay

Today I've dropped maths, seriously can't cope with it, mostly about graphs which it's literally killing me..
I suck at graphs, I can't stand it D;
Luckily I still managed to drop it, and replace it with fundamental maths
Hope fundamental maths isn't that hard, I seriously suck in maths ><
And lots of assessments coming right up, chemistry and English
Feel like dying but.. GANBATTE!!!

#PrayForMH370

Well MH370 still lost for 50++ hours already
This is not going to be a long post
What's more important..
Please be safe passengers and crews on MH370
Please bless MH370 to return safely
#PrayForMH370

Officially 18

Yo, long time didn't post liao

Lazy + I've got nth to post xP 

Well first of all, I enrolled into Sunway college, MUFY

Officially Sunway student *cough cough*

Will be in the same college with primary school friends, and ah jean *hurray*

College starts at 24th of March

Gonna drive to college liao *sobs*

Okay

Just 1 more hour, and I'll be officially 18

Feeling old liao boohoo 

And tbh I always wanted to celebrate my birthday with my friends, but didn't get the chance.. Yea sad sad xP 

Well turning 18, must at least be more mature

Gonna do revision everyday, no more last minute studies 

Will try to get all homework finish, TRY LA haha

Find a boyfriend *cough cough* just kidding XD 

Happy birthday to me~ *sounds so forever alone..* 

HAHA XD 

Btw the blogger app I'm using on my phone still has the iOS 5 keyboard, wow I kinda missed it XD 

Sorry Silver

Few days ago, another Myvi with a P sticker on it, it got crashed and scratches were everywhere

And I still dare to say "how could the driver be so careless" etc

Come to think of it, I was being kinda arrogant, thinking that I will not make that silly mistake

And even when just now in a traffic jam, I said what I won't get a single scratch on my car, even if someone offer to repair my car, my car will not be original anymore

I talk big, I hate myself ugh

I won't blame anything or anyone 

It's my fault, for not seeing properly before taking action

I crashed Silver's bumper into a divider while crossing a junction

I almost lost my thought and everything actually

But thinking that in the car was John and my bro

Quickly I drove into a petrol station nearby and stopped

Never felt so desperate and so sorry before

I was scared being scolded by parents

And of course I felt like Silver must be aching 

Hate myself so much, if I had been more careful all of these won't have happened

Thank you john, for calming me down and all

The moment you tried to fix the bumper, I was so grateful, cuz thanks to you, it wasn't that obvious now

But I still have to tell my parents

Lying to them won't help anything at all, I don't have the money to get the whole bumper changed, so I guess being honest is the only choice

Hope that they can understand me

Super guilty I hate myself

Why was I so blur that time?

Sorry daddy, sorry mommy, sorry Silver

*yea I named my car Silver*