Failure

So I received my finals results for sem 1

Knew it during the Penang trip with pudding tho

2 D and 1 F

A F for chemistry

2 marks away from passing

Speechless

First time purely no cheating

First time studied early 

Paid attention in class

Only for once I was daydreaming

Can't help it cuz that day I was going to present for English

So I was dead nervous

Couldn't eat couldn't joke like I used to

So not me LOL

Tried so hard not to think about it during Penang trip 

I knew it would ruin my mood 

I scared I would cry in front of everyone 

I thought I've let it go

But actually I haven't 

Went to see Ms Edith today

And she said for accelerated class, if I failed one subject I must take additional semester 

And then I was so so so miserable

I don't wanna take additional sem alone

I hated to be alone

I scared to be on my own

I know I must learn to be more independent

But I just couldn't 

By the time I'm having my extra semester 

My friends would all be in monash already

And I'll be all alone in MUFY

I might be joining with July intakes

And everyone would be already having their own gang

I'm not good at being socializing 

I'm not good at approaching for new friends

I would miss my friends until I die 

It's not like I didn't pay attention in class

It's not like I didn't work hard

It's not like I didn't do revisions

Why?

It's still only two more marks

God damn this shit

Appealed for clerical check

Ms Edith told me to be mentally prepared that usually the outcome will still be a F

And that costed me RM50

Put money issue aside

It's only two more marks for god's sake

Please let me pass this shit

I don't wanna waste my parents' money for an extra sem

Why am I so useless? 

#REDTourMalaysia

Oh yea
Last night was the best night ever
Went to my goddess, Taylor Swift's concert
Finally she came to Malaysia wee <3
Well everything was perfect
The only disaster was the people sitting in front of us
Guys, I know you all were excited, but can you sit properly?
They keep standing up, raising their hands and that was actually blocking our view lor
Joey got so fed up that she kept on cursing and kicked their chairs few times
I felt like kicking their head seriously
Anyways, it was a really awesome concert
Hope she'll come again lah :D

Opening of the concert

Guess who? XD

Perfect <3

Leng lui and I <3 XD

#REDTourMalaysia
#LongLiveREDTour

22nd May 2014

Yo
On the 22nd of May
I got my braces off
*should have posted this earlier but.. yea ah haha*
Well I thought the process will be suffering
But erm no, it only took only around 5 minutes and walahh sayonara braces
Dr Wong daebak, so damn fast and no feel at all haha
But now I have to wear retainer
Which wearing retainer sucks
So damn not comfortable
Much more uncomfortable than wearing braces
And I'm actually missing braces in some way
I'm so damn weird hahaha

Sayonara braces ❤️✋

HOLIDAYYY :D

Yoshh
Semester one final exams ended yesterday
Hahahaha yay and a month plus holiday for me
From 24th May until 29th June
Long right bwahahaha
Well hope I can get at least 60 for every subject
Especially chemistry ><
Results will be released on 26th June
Then have to register for new schedule straight away from that day
Hope I get to be in the same group as my #SELFIE gang

Anyways gonna enjoy my one and only little holiday
Huhuhu
Sem 2 sem 2 please be good to me TwT

And oh yeah
11th of June
Taylor Swift RED concert Malaysia tour weee
Countdown 18 more days left
Going with Yan2 <3 XD

Finals

Yo, it's 2am, I should be asleep by now but I just can't
Maybe I napped for too long, maybe the mocha I had for dinner just now is showing it's effect
Anyways, what I'm feeling now it's almost exactly like the night before SPM
Yea, tomorrow I'll be facing final examination for the 1st semester
Time sure flies, orientation was still just like only few weeks ago for me
And now I'm already have to face the finals already
Well this isn't like SPM anymore
If I failed, that's it, I'll be wasting my parents' money
And it's not any laughing matter, its  thousands and thousands of money being thrown away
NO MORE PLAY PLAY AH CYY

Look at the bright side, I think English shall not be any problem to me
Since my internal assessments I scored quite well
Out of 50%, I've scored 44.9%, if round off it'll be 45%
All I could say was I met a really nice lecturer
She really tried her best to help us, well of course we worked hard lah
Thanks Ms. Hani :)

As for Chemistry, out of 50%, I've only scored 34.2%
Well.. Can be counted as average ba? *self-encouraging*
I love science, well more to the bio side la of course
I hated Chemistry but if you ask me to drop it, I don't think I would cuz..
I've gotten used to the presence of it I guess?
I hated chem, but in another way, I couldn't live without it LOL
Well, I'm not going to compare my results to other geniuses in my class
I'll only compare it with myself
Looking back my chem result in high school and now
I've improved a lot lor *so proud of myself*
Ah haha but still, not good enough
I'm still not working hard enough /3\
GAMBATEH BA >.<

Fundamental Maths
Well it's not as easy as I thought
It has lots of word problems to be dealt with
And I thought it was easy but erm I WAS WRONG zzz
Out of 30%, I've only scored 17.1%
And I'm the one with add maths background some more
AMAT MEMALUKAN LAH CYY
I admit I did not pay attention in class, I did not do homework
I never liked maths anyways, so I can't imagine myself doing fund maths homework hahah
Anyways, although it's not actually really important but since I've taken it..
I must be responsible for it and try my best lah
HWAITINGGGGG

To all my other friends
Let's all work hard together
And advance to unit 2 together in the next semester
YAY XD

Trying to fall asleep
Oyasumi~

Run Away

I feel like I'm such a coward
Whenever I feel scared to face something
I will turn around and run away irresponsibly
Wanted to change this bad habit of mine
But it's just so hard
WHYYYYY UGHHHH

I'm having chemistry trials later
And I'm 100% not ready yet
Well we can choose to not to sit for it
Since it's not counted in the finals
But I still feel bad if I don't go
SO COMPLICATED NOWWWW
Go la go la screw everything up HAHAHAHA

Wanted to be like her
Fearless 

Assessments

Yo

Starting to get use of college life's pace

Secondary school life was way much easier way much stress free compare to college life

Last year I was still kinda admiring those seniors who moved on to college, said goodbye to SPM

Well now I know I was wrong haha, college life isn't that enjoyable

The first week when college started, I suddenly felt really really stress

I can't eat well, I can't sleep well

Thinking every night "Am I choosing the right course? Am I choosing the right subject?" etc

Thank god I got used to it now haha

My timetable is quite shitty

Class, break, class, break...

4 days in a week I have to stay till 5:15, bare with the terrible traffic

REALLY REALLY TERRIBLE

Usually it only took me half an hour to reach home, but due to the jam, it took me 1 and a 1/2 hour

What's making it worse was the rain

I suppose weather hated me a lot, cuz when I'm not driving, it won't rain at the time I was going back

But when I'm supposed to drive, it rained at 5pm something WTF thanks a lot dude

Fortunately I got used to it, hahaha

Okay what's more important ASSESSMENTS

For MUFY it's divided into 2 parts, internal assessments and then the external, FINAL EXAM

So the marks are as well divided into 50% : 50%

Therefore we are given assessments, English assessment

1st we have to write the damn report, which we aren't allowed to use Wikipedia

But usually I use Wikipedia de lorrrr NYUUUUUUU QAQ

After that we still have to do oral presentation according what we have wrote on our report

The marks is report 10%, presentation 10%

Total 20% 

THAT'S QUITE A LOT XIA WEIH GG LIAO

Talking about presentation, I have to thank Pn Nurlina for forcing us to do presentation for last year's ULBS

If not I would not have that kind of experience, to present a topic in front of everyone

But last year Pn Nurlina let us chose our own topic tho, I've chose to talk about Kei, my e.organ

For now the topics are quite limited, we have to choose what's given on the list

I've chosen gay marriage, the most interesting topic, for me la

Cuz other quite boring leh

It ain't easy liao, not like last year I don't even really need to do research on it, well I'm organist, I just talked based on my personal experience :p

As for gay marriage, I have to do a lot of research

The articles are so long and I have to scan em'all to look for infos haiz

At least 6 sources: 3 from book/ebook, 2 from journals, and 3 from articles online

JUST KILL ME *sigh*

K la I guess that's all

More like complaining than blogging hahaha

Ganbatte to me!