Finals Sem 2

Time do flies
And now it's already time for finals for semester 2
Starting on next Monday, until 4th of November
Well my internals are quite okay this sem
Fund maths is still shitty tho
I still have to take additional semester anyway

All the best ba :D

Gotta go study
Ciao~

BFF

I can't sleep

I'm tired but I can't sleep

Things are still going on in my brain 

And I decided to type it out

To my dearest best friend, no offense, I'm just voicing out

You're my best friend, and I meant forever

Please don't ever say stuffs weren't like before, nothing will change 

I cared for you, I still do

But tbh once in awhile, it doesn't have to be me approaching you first

I actually hope you can approach me first 

At least that will make me feel you care for me too

Sometimes I stopped myself from caring 

Cuz your cold responses, made me feel like am I annoying? Should I stop what I was doing?

I really thought you stopped caring 

And when you're not okay, please just be honest with me, I suck at reading people, I'm not really sensible, but I will try my best to do so 

Bear in mind, you will never be replaced, you're my soulmate for life, and I hope I'm still your best friend, I hope I'm not getting replaced 

I was once give up on believing best friends are forever, but you made me believe that again, and I wanna continue believing it

And I'll admit, when I see your selfies with your new friends, I do get jealous, I just don't wanna admit it, but I do

I'm a really complicated person, which is troublesome and sensitive, thanks for accepting for who I am

I'm glad I met you, I'm glad you actually cared for me that much, I honestly didn't expect that 

Our friendship will never end, and it's still counting on, happy 3 years anniversary best bud ❤️

It's a bit 老土 to say so but still

Best friends forever ❤️

Stress

During 1st semester, I thought that was already really stressful
Until I came to 2nd semester, now I know 1st semester was actually really relaxing already
And I know whats more coming is during degree, the so called stress we're having now is nothing compared to degree

I failed chemistry and resulting having to take an additional semester
This was already stress enough for me cuz I still can't let it go
Especially when I see other of my friends are able to prepare to move onto university already
While I was still in college, and next year I really cannot imagine what it will be like
Today they all handed up their application form, while here I was, emo and overthinking cuz I can't apply yet
Okay this is getting a bit off track
Come back come back haha

For the 1st time, I'm actually feeling English is hard and really stressful
Well most of it is cuz Monash only accepts with a minimum average mark of 65% for both semesters
Plus, English really has quite an amount of important assignments
The research project report and the presentation, which the marks allocated are quite high
Then the contemporary writing which worth 20% itself
1st semester's English was way much easier than now
Now we have so many texts and movie to remember
Two movies 42 and Rabbit-proof Fence, which movies are still quite okay to me
Then novel The Kite Runner which I was still at chapter 2, such a boring novel =3=
Then Half The Sky lagi teruk cuz all it's talking about is human trafficking, prostitutes, sex etc
Tbh I'm not even interested to read it but I got no other choice
Gotta start reading it soon =3=
Plus, our lecturer loves presentation
I'm starting to feel so numb and tired of it already
And some of our group members aren't even helpful
MIA whenever they feel like it
Speechless

Then bio currently no more assignments THANK GOD
But I'm still kind of stressed cuz I'm scared I can't manage it
For the last topic test I only scored 65% /3\
Not good enough ah
Bio is important for me ugh

Then ICT
I'm sort of regretting why did I even take it
I'm not even touching stuffs about IT LOL
I'm thinking should I have retook chemistry unit 1 instead
But then I scared I'll fail it again
Ugh why am I so weak :(
Left one major assignment: programming
Can't even download VB how to program jek ugh

Finals are coming soon
One more month approximately
Gambateh ba

Weakness

Had a great day today

Fulfilled my promise that I'll bring YC and Xue Ning to Pavilion

Too bad Yan2 can't go with us tho

And I didn't tell my mom that I sleptover at my laopo's house

She wouldn't let, but dad and mom are both at Singapore

Why don't I sleep with my laopo then bwahaha XD 

Paktor more than 24 hours hahaha ❤️

So yea drove to pavilion

My first time driving to KL

Quite a chaotic area @@

Welcome to KL peeps

Well I'm really bad at directions

So all I'm relying on is Waze

Going back that time, something major happened 

I was following Waze blindly

I didn't realize there was a double line

I didn't realize there was police

Well I went the wrong way, but I don't wanna go Smart tunnel which is the wrong way, some more have to pay toll

So I just cut to the left hand side lane, without realizing there's this double line 

Who usually cares about that dumbass line anyways =w=

Then kena tepi 

My first time weih, I was so fcking nervous

I can't think properly

All I can do is panic and thinking what I've done wrong 

Well the policeman keep mentioning "sayang la P license kena saman"

Obviously he was waiting for me to ask for his help -.-

I have to do this I got no choice

If not I have to retake the whole exam

Tbh I'm against bribery 

If I'm not a P license driver 

I would have just tell him "encik nk saman cepat saman je"

I don't mind paying 300 bucks

Ik it's my bad for crossing the double line as laws are laws 

Never mind, one more year then sayonara P license 

Feel like I was such a loser tho

I was actually so afraid that I'll lose my license, that I was about to cry

So lakseh weih -.-

But my laopo was so calm, asking me to chill and telling me it'll be okay 

YC was already preparing *cough*

Lol I was trembling in fear, almost like when I was having Mottephobia but well it wasn't that serious la

My biggest weakness is to be afraid of anything unexpected

I can't handle them calmly

Why am I so weak..

2nd datoutie in my life 

Love you guys thanks for bearing with my temper, and how useless I am

Insecurity

I always have this feeling of insecure
Like sometimes I will even feel so insecure, that my chest is like irregular heartbeat rate
And I'll be kinda nervous dk for what
I can't sit still, then I'll move my attention to my phone, probably 2048 or stuffs that need me to think or need lots of my attention

I'm always afraid of being alone
Always afraid of the ones I cared might leave me one day
Or thought that I'm annoying or troublesome etc /3\
I still can remember during primary school, my one and only close friend I have, I trusted the most
She left me
During standard 4 and 5, I was kind of in a rebellion state I guess
I don't have the mood to study at all, although I was in the 1st class aka the best class
Everyone was such a smarty pants
I got the last place in class daebak eh
Then of course my ranking was so bad that I dropped from the 1st class to the 2nd class during standard 6
Well I won't think it's a really bad thing tho
In the 1st class, I realized you won't have any true friends, all everyone cared was only their grades, their rankings and stuffs
I thought my best friend wasn't like that but I was wrong apparently
She told me different class never mind, cuz she'll wait for me and recess or hangout with me like we used to
She said we are best friends forever so no worries cuz nothing will change
I was so touched cuz I thought it was real
But erm no, she didn't wait for me, she went off to recess with her other friends
Which left me, the stupid one who believed her, waited for her outside her class almost everyday
Luckily my cousin dragged me with her
Then I was never alone, to have my CTM <3

Then secondary school, when my Shun Shun transferred, darn I was so sad I cried for so long
When form 3 starts, I didn't even know where I belonged to, cuz I usually hangout with her although when form 2 we weren't in the same class
Jean said I was like a lost puppy hahaha
Well then thanks for adopting me with you guys ah Pudding <3
#PuddingFamlilyForever #LongLivePudding

Then now college
1st day of college during orientation well I was kind of lost without Pudding them la
But I was lucky that I met Joey and Xue Ning them
The 1st program of the 1st day of orientation haven't even started yet
I've already made a new friend, Joey
Then coincidentally my sem 1's timetable every single subject I was in the same class with Xue Ning
And my luck was so good that I met YC, exactly my kind, the same kind of people DAEBAK XD
Most importantly, I met my beloved laopo
My one decision leads to quite a big impact ah
Imagine if I didn't drop maths and switch to fund maths, then maybe I wouldn't have got so close with her
Maybe only hi-bye friends?
Fate brought us together hahaha <3

Sem 2 is actually kind of suckish compared to sem 1
I have to spend most of my breaks alone
I have to bear with the stress of going to sem 3 alone
Like I said I can't handle myself to be alone
Maybe I am insecure in this way haha
But again, luckily I met my laopo, who really knows me quite well, always there for me, and of course the one who I will turn around and run to when I really am insecure
Cuz I know she will be there for me
And she is my padlock to my insecurity

I was trying so hard to move on from the fear of being alone
But now it's already August, 2014 is ending so soon in the blink of an eye
And 2015, Idk what should I feel about it
I'm not happy tbh
Cuz sem 3 I'll be all on my own, without my #selfie gang
Without my laopo
Idk how should I survive haha

Well if I'm more mature then maybe I won't be afraid at all of these stupid stuffs
But yea I'm still immature I guess

Moving on from your fear is hard..

Driving Issues

I'm really a P driver 

My dad taught me lots of stuffs about cars 

But he missed out one 

How to pump air for tyre 

Forgotten to check silver's tyre

For like months

It was supposed to be 31

But then it actually left 20 

And so went to pump air with my laopo

But the funny part is none of us know how to pump LOL

We didn't know that must press "flat tyre" before start pumping 

So it was weird that it keep letting the air in my tyre out instead of pumping it in

It was originally left 20, but then drop till 8

Then I was so panic xia, like wtffff

Luckily I didn't go alone haha

Laopo thought of going to ask the petrol station staff to help us

So paiseh la haha

Thank you Mr petrol station guy XD 

And I found my EQ is really really bad 

I get angry or annoyed really easily 

The worst part is, I can't even control myself

Especially when it comes to driving

Like just now there's this motor suddenly cut into my lane 

Like really really suddenly

I almost hit him, but luckily I didn't la

He still dare to horn me, and even glared at me

WTF you're the one who's cutting lane recklessly =.=

At that moment I actually feel like accelerating to hit him for real

And then after that, I really got annoyed by other drivers, like everyone of them, especially motorcycles are annoying to me

Then there's this Kenari cutting lane again

No signals no nothing

Just come out suddenly

I almost crashed it again

DUDE AFTER I HORN BARU PAKAI SIGNAL GENIUS

Anger control ahhh

I really drive very recklessly when I'm angry 

Almost put my laopo's life in danger too

Sorry ah laopo ><

Volcano alert 

Assignments

1st of all Selamat Hari Raya to all my Muslim friends
And of course we got a week of Raya break
But to me it ain't a break at all
More like a week for us to rush assignments
Rush-assignment-week ah TwT

First of all is English
Have to start on the report's draft already
Draft has to be handed in by 8th of August

Second is Biology
We are asked to choose a topic
And do a slide on it
I chose MRI
Magnetic Resonance Imaging
Seen in those HK drama before
And it's quite interesting hahaha

Cool eh XD
And also have to hand in the draft by 8th of August

WHAT IS WRONG WITH 8/8/14 =3=

And added another task by myself is to finish reading Kite Runner
HOPEFULLY /3\

Kk la
Gonna work on it now
CHAYOK

Sorry

*cough*
It's quite a long time since I updated my blog
And it's even kinda awkward for me now to start
So I started off with a cough hahaha

I'm sorry.

I'm really feeling kinda down these days
It started on the day I received my sem 1 finals' results
I was still on my Penang trip with pudding
I failed my chemistry, yea I got no regrets for that cuz I've really tried my best
Even I've worked hard but I still failed miserably
Maybe I didn't work hard enough
Maybe I studied the wrong way
Idk but it really is depressing
Everyone can move on to the next sem
As for me I have to take an additional sem
5 months all on my own
Ik it's only a small matter
But I cannot cope with this
I tend to overthink everyday
I even paid RM50 for the clerical check
Which now I'm telling myself not to get my hopes on it too high up
Cuz lots of people told me the outcome most probably will still be the same
But hey, it's still a small small hope, the only small small hope I can bet on

I've been putting a fake smiley face these days
I don't want to show my weak side to others
I laughed I smiled everyday
But I find this is actually really really tiring
I hated sem 2
I missed sem 1
I still feel like I've wasted my dad's money
But what to do I've worked hard
I wouldn't say I'm really hardworking
But I'm comparing to myself, I'm way much more better than the old me
I'm a failure

And to that someone, not sure will you be reading this but
No offense I'm just gonna voice out what I felt
I thought we're already considered close friends
But apparently, only I felt so, only I thought so
I always believed how you treat your friends, and that's the way your friends are going to treat you back
That's why I always treated almost all of my close friends with a true and sincere heart
Even sometimes my mom would scolded me stupid for doing so
All I replied her was a smile
Maybe my soulmate was right, nobody asks me to care, so why should I care that much?
Idk, I can't stop myself from caring the ones I cared
It felt like these days, I've been avoided or what
Same class, but it's even pathetic to say, so what?
Are we hanging out like we used to?
I would even preferred to go back to sem 1, although have to stay till very late, bare with the terrible traffics, not even same class for a single subject
But at least, I felt really really happy
I was even excited to attend classes, everyday
Now? Sometimes I even felt like, can I not go today, can I stay at home today etc
Sometimes I even tried to squeeze out some free time out, but so what?
Rejected. Speechlessly, I said it's okay, never mind.

Sorry for being naive, stupid enough to care too much
Sorry if I annoyed you, I'm too childish to be handled
I get hyper at times, even I'm annoyed by myself, regretting why would I have took such stupid and reckless actions

I'm sorry. Once again.

-caring too much may hurt yourself too-

Mottephobia

Mottephobia aka moth phobia

Yes

I'm afraid of moth

Or any flying insects like dragonfly or butterflies or flying cockroach etc

But the one I feared the most is moth

I know it won't bite or it won't kill me

But idk why I'm so deadly afraid of it

Luckily I'm living in apartment, 4th floor, which it most likely couldn't reach this height

Incident happened just now

And nobody cares, nobody takes it seriously

There was a moth at the door

Everyone ran out

Leaving me alone in the dark room, with a fcking moth

I've never felt so frightened in my life before

I got so scared that I cried

I got so scared that I couldn't stop trembling

I got so scared that my legs are shaking and I don't even have the strength to walk out

I was hoping someone will come for my rescue

Especially my dear o mom

But instead of helping me a little

She was teasing and scolding me like it was only a small matter 

Yea, it is a small matter to you or to everyone

BUT NOT TO ME OKAY

I HAVE MOTH PHOBIA

Or you can say insects phobia

I couldn't help this

I just got so scared and felt so helpless

That I actually rather I could die now

I'm so seriously scared

You were so seriously not believing me

I know I am so useless

Again

Why am I so useless?

Failure

So I received my finals results for sem 1

Knew it during the Penang trip with pudding tho

2 D and 1 F

A F for chemistry

2 marks away from passing

Speechless

First time purely no cheating

First time studied early 

Paid attention in class

Only for once I was daydreaming

Can't help it cuz that day I was going to present for English

So I was dead nervous

Couldn't eat couldn't joke like I used to

So not me LOL

Tried so hard not to think about it during Penang trip 

I knew it would ruin my mood 

I scared I would cry in front of everyone 

I thought I've let it go

But actually I haven't 

Went to see Ms Edith today

And she said for accelerated class, if I failed one subject I must take additional semester 

And then I was so so so miserable

I don't wanna take additional sem alone

I hated to be alone

I scared to be on my own

I know I must learn to be more independent

But I just couldn't 

By the time I'm having my extra semester 

My friends would all be in monash already

And I'll be all alone in MUFY

I might be joining with July intakes

And everyone would be already having their own gang

I'm not good at being socializing 

I'm not good at approaching for new friends

I would miss my friends until I die 

It's not like I didn't pay attention in class

It's not like I didn't work hard

It's not like I didn't do revisions

Why?

It's still only two more marks

God damn this shit

Appealed for clerical check

Ms Edith told me to be mentally prepared that usually the outcome will still be a F

And that costed me RM50

Put money issue aside

It's only two more marks for god's sake

Please let me pass this shit

I don't wanna waste my parents' money for an extra sem

Why am I so useless? 

#REDTourMalaysia

Oh yea
Last night was the best night ever
Went to my goddess, Taylor Swift's concert
Finally she came to Malaysia wee <3
Well everything was perfect
The only disaster was the people sitting in front of us
Guys, I know you all were excited, but can you sit properly?
They keep standing up, raising their hands and that was actually blocking our view lor
Joey got so fed up that she kept on cursing and kicked their chairs few times
I felt like kicking their head seriously
Anyways, it was a really awesome concert
Hope she'll come again lah :D

Opening of the concert

Guess who? XD

Perfect <3

Leng lui and I <3 XD

#REDTourMalaysia
#LongLiveREDTour

22nd May 2014

Yo
On the 22nd of May
I got my braces off
*should have posted this earlier but.. yea ah haha*
Well I thought the process will be suffering
But erm no, it only took only around 5 minutes and walahh sayonara braces
Dr Wong daebak, so damn fast and no feel at all haha
But now I have to wear retainer
Which wearing retainer sucks
So damn not comfortable
Much more uncomfortable than wearing braces
And I'm actually missing braces in some way
I'm so damn weird hahaha

Sayonara braces ❤️✋

HOLIDAYYY :D

Yoshh
Semester one final exams ended yesterday
Hahahaha yay and a month plus holiday for me
From 24th May until 29th June
Long right bwahahaha
Well hope I can get at least 60 for every subject
Especially chemistry ><
Results will be released on 26th June
Then have to register for new schedule straight away from that day
Hope I get to be in the same group as my #SELFIE gang

Anyways gonna enjoy my one and only little holiday
Huhuhu
Sem 2 sem 2 please be good to me TwT

And oh yeah
11th of June
Taylor Swift RED concert Malaysia tour weee
Countdown 18 more days left
Going with Yan2 <3 XD

Finals

Yo, it's 2am, I should be asleep by now but I just can't
Maybe I napped for too long, maybe the mocha I had for dinner just now is showing it's effect
Anyways, what I'm feeling now it's almost exactly like the night before SPM
Yea, tomorrow I'll be facing final examination for the 1st semester
Time sure flies, orientation was still just like only few weeks ago for me
And now I'm already have to face the finals already
Well this isn't like SPM anymore
If I failed, that's it, I'll be wasting my parents' money
And it's not any laughing matter, its  thousands and thousands of money being thrown away
NO MORE PLAY PLAY AH CYY

Look at the bright side, I think English shall not be any problem to me
Since my internal assessments I scored quite well
Out of 50%, I've scored 44.9%, if round off it'll be 45%
All I could say was I met a really nice lecturer
She really tried her best to help us, well of course we worked hard lah
Thanks Ms. Hani :)

As for Chemistry, out of 50%, I've only scored 34.2%
Well.. Can be counted as average ba? *self-encouraging*
I love science, well more to the bio side la of course
I hated Chemistry but if you ask me to drop it, I don't think I would cuz..
I've gotten used to the presence of it I guess?
I hated chem, but in another way, I couldn't live without it LOL
Well, I'm not going to compare my results to other geniuses in my class
I'll only compare it with myself
Looking back my chem result in high school and now
I've improved a lot lor *so proud of myself*
Ah haha but still, not good enough
I'm still not working hard enough /3\
GAMBATEH BA >.<

Fundamental Maths
Well it's not as easy as I thought
It has lots of word problems to be dealt with
And I thought it was easy but erm I WAS WRONG zzz
Out of 30%, I've only scored 17.1%
And I'm the one with add maths background some more
AMAT MEMALUKAN LAH CYY
I admit I did not pay attention in class, I did not do homework
I never liked maths anyways, so I can't imagine myself doing fund maths homework hahah
Anyways, although it's not actually really important but since I've taken it..
I must be responsible for it and try my best lah
HWAITINGGGGG

To all my other friends
Let's all work hard together
And advance to unit 2 together in the next semester
YAY XD

Trying to fall asleep
Oyasumi~

Run Away

I feel like I'm such a coward
Whenever I feel scared to face something
I will turn around and run away irresponsibly
Wanted to change this bad habit of mine
But it's just so hard
WHYYYYY UGHHHH

I'm having chemistry trials later
And I'm 100% not ready yet
Well we can choose to not to sit for it
Since it's not counted in the finals
But I still feel bad if I don't go
SO COMPLICATED NOWWWW
Go la go la screw everything up HAHAHAHA

Wanted to be like her
Fearless 

Assessments

Yo

Starting to get use of college life's pace

Secondary school life was way much easier way much stress free compare to college life

Last year I was still kinda admiring those seniors who moved on to college, said goodbye to SPM

Well now I know I was wrong haha, college life isn't that enjoyable

The first week when college started, I suddenly felt really really stress

I can't eat well, I can't sleep well

Thinking every night "Am I choosing the right course? Am I choosing the right subject?" etc

Thank god I got used to it now haha

My timetable is quite shitty

Class, break, class, break...

4 days in a week I have to stay till 5:15, bare with the terrible traffic

REALLY REALLY TERRIBLE

Usually it only took me half an hour to reach home, but due to the jam, it took me 1 and a 1/2 hour

What's making it worse was the rain

I suppose weather hated me a lot, cuz when I'm not driving, it won't rain at the time I was going back

But when I'm supposed to drive, it rained at 5pm something WTF thanks a lot dude

Fortunately I got used to it, hahaha

Okay what's more important ASSESSMENTS

For MUFY it's divided into 2 parts, internal assessments and then the external, FINAL EXAM

So the marks are as well divided into 50% : 50%

Therefore we are given assessments, English assessment

1st we have to write the damn report, which we aren't allowed to use Wikipedia

But usually I use Wikipedia de lorrrr NYUUUUUUU QAQ

After that we still have to do oral presentation according what we have wrote on our report

The marks is report 10%, presentation 10%

Total 20% 

THAT'S QUITE A LOT XIA WEIH GG LIAO

Talking about presentation, I have to thank Pn Nurlina for forcing us to do presentation for last year's ULBS

If not I would not have that kind of experience, to present a topic in front of everyone

But last year Pn Nurlina let us chose our own topic tho, I've chose to talk about Kei, my e.organ

For now the topics are quite limited, we have to choose what's given on the list

I've chosen gay marriage, the most interesting topic, for me la

Cuz other quite boring leh

It ain't easy liao, not like last year I don't even really need to do research on it, well I'm organist, I just talked based on my personal experience :p

As for gay marriage, I have to do a lot of research

The articles are so long and I have to scan em'all to look for infos haiz

At least 6 sources: 3 from book/ebook, 2 from journals, and 3 from articles online

JUST KILL ME *sigh*

K la I guess that's all

More like complaining than blogging hahaha

Ganbatte to me!

Wallet MIA

Yosh~

Haiz lost my wallet, got RM40++ in it, what's more important, my driving license and IC

Had our first chemistry experiment on Friday

Got overexcited over our first experiment

And idk why I'm so excited with the little drawer of the lab's table, it's quite handy and cute LOL XD

I think I left my wallet in that freaking drawer tho

The last time I saw it was I took money to pay for the lab coat, I think? @@

I think I must have put it in the drawer then @@

But the weird part is I took my phone and watch before I left the lab, which I put my watch and phone with the wallet leh QAQ

IF it wasn't in the lab where could it be?

I didn't take or there wasn't a need to use my wallet liao leh

Ouh shyt la me, I'm so dead meat, don't know how to tell my parents

As you can see re-doing an IC is quite expensive, RM100++ for the first time I think?

PLUS MY DRIVING LICENSE ARGHHH

Haiz can only blame myself for being overexcited over such small stuffs TwT

Feel like I was acting like a child hahahaha yea

Suat Ning did went crazy with me so I wasn't the only child bwahaha YO MATE! XD

Back to the topic

Went to find my wallet yesterday

But the staffs wasn't available so couldn't get into the lab because it was locked D:

At least I made a report to the security

Hope I can get my wallet back la, with my important stuffs such as my IC, driving license and the 大头贴

 WALLET PLEASE RETURN SAFELY T.T

College life

Yo, long time no post
I ran out of topics to post XD
So yea, college life had started since this Monday
I'm taking Monash University Foundation Year aka MUFY
Well I drove to college everyday so it's actually quite tiring
And tbh I'm missing secondary school life very much
College life is stressful, well most of it is because mine is accelerated class
Kinda regretting that I should have take January intake instead of March intake tho
Well since regretting also can't help anything, I'll try my best
Luckily I'm already starting to get used to it
And luckily I met a few of friends too

My 1st friend is Joey, comes from Ipoh, leng lui lai hahaha
As usual, she approached me 1st, asked my name and all
I admit I was so useless, don't have the guts to even greet people hahaha
Moving on is Suat Ning, luckily she is in the same class with me, keeping me accompanied all the time, and being my personal GPS
Haha as you know I'm really bad in directions, and we have to change class like for every different subject
And moreover, we'll be having different classmates for different subjects, some same tho..
But it's still easier to make friends during orientation
And really really luckily I met them seriously yay

Today I've dropped maths, seriously can't cope with it, mostly about graphs which it's literally killing me..
I suck at graphs, I can't stand it D;
Luckily I still managed to drop it, and replace it with fundamental maths
Hope fundamental maths isn't that hard, I seriously suck in maths ><
And lots of assessments coming right up, chemistry and English
Feel like dying but.. GANBATTE!!!

#PrayForMH370

Well MH370 still lost for 50++ hours already
This is not going to be a long post
What's more important..
Please be safe passengers and crews on MH370
Please bless MH370 to return safely
#PrayForMH370

Officially 18

Yo, long time didn't post liao

Lazy + I've got nth to post xP 

Well first of all, I enrolled into Sunway college, MUFY

Officially Sunway student *cough cough*

Will be in the same college with primary school friends, and ah jean *hurray*

College starts at 24th of March

Gonna drive to college liao *sobs*

Okay

Just 1 more hour, and I'll be officially 18

Feeling old liao boohoo 

And tbh I always wanted to celebrate my birthday with my friends, but didn't get the chance.. Yea sad sad xP 

Well turning 18, must at least be more mature

Gonna do revision everyday, no more last minute studies 

Will try to get all homework finish, TRY LA haha

Find a boyfriend *cough cough* just kidding XD 

Happy birthday to me~ *sounds so forever alone..* 

HAHA XD 

Btw the blogger app I'm using on my phone still has the iOS 5 keyboard, wow I kinda missed it XD 

Sorry Silver

Few days ago, another Myvi with a P sticker on it, it got crashed and scratches were everywhere

And I still dare to say "how could the driver be so careless" etc

Come to think of it, I was being kinda arrogant, thinking that I will not make that silly mistake

And even when just now in a traffic jam, I said what I won't get a single scratch on my car, even if someone offer to repair my car, my car will not be original anymore

I talk big, I hate myself ugh

I won't blame anything or anyone 

It's my fault, for not seeing properly before taking action

I crashed Silver's bumper into a divider while crossing a junction

I almost lost my thought and everything actually

But thinking that in the car was John and my bro

Quickly I drove into a petrol station nearby and stopped

Never felt so desperate and so sorry before

I was scared being scolded by parents

And of course I felt like Silver must be aching 

Hate myself so much, if I had been more careful all of these won't have happened

Thank you john, for calming me down and all

The moment you tried to fix the bumper, I was so grateful, cuz thanks to you, it wasn't that obvious now

But I still have to tell my parents

Lying to them won't help anything at all, I don't have the money to get the whole bumper changed, so I guess being honest is the only choice

Hope that they can understand me

Super guilty I hate myself

Why was I so blur that time?

Sorry daddy, sorry mommy, sorry Silver

*yea I named my car Silver*